Greetings Gorgeous

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This message is dedicated to my drivers: Leonne, Jo, Jackie, and Nancy

You are Worthy of Love

“I’m really scared,” I began to cry softly into the phone.

My friend stayed quiet, listening to me intently.

“I don’t want to do this anymore….”  I started to cry harder as the situation seemed to crash in on me.  “I don’t want to go to that hospital every day, I don’t want these treatments, I don’t want any of this….I don’t think I can do it….”

I had been handling the whole cancer process fairly well, I thought.  The diagnosis, the surgery, the recovery from surgery, the change in diet, the insane amount of medical tests and appointments but when it came to the radiation treatments, I had suddenly hit a wall.

I don’t even remember what my friend said to me that day, I just remember how she quietly let me cry and listened to my fears, as unfounded as they may have seemed, helping me to feel less alone.  She called me a few days later to check in with me and to tell me that she had a plan.

“My friend suggested something we can do to help you and I hope you’ll agree to the plan,” she said.  “We are going to drive you to your radiation treatments every day.”

I was stunned.

“There’s no need for that,” I protested.  “I’m okay – I was just having a rough day the other day….that would be too much to have you drive me every day.”

“That’s the beauty of this,” she said.  “We’ll get a whole group of people and all take turns and none of us will have to drive more than once or twice a week.  We’ll drop you off at the door, wait for you to have your treatment, and then drive you home again.  You won’t have to worry about traffic or finding a parking spot or anything!”

We talked for a few more minutes and when I finally agreed, she hung up the phone and I sat there, still feeling stunned and uncomfortable and thinking maybe I should call her back and turn down her generous offer.  I didn’t feel worthy of that kind of generosity.

But the next week, they began arriving at my door.  For over six weeks, every day, a different friend would drive me to the hospital, wait for me to have my treatment and then drive me home again.  It was the most amazing thing anyone had ever done for me.

About two weeks into my treatments, I was lying completely still on the table as the radiation machine did its thing.  I started to think about my friends driving me every day and I wondered why they would do this for me.  I wasn’t paying them, I wasn’t buying their gas, I wasn’t taking them out for lunch or even paying for the parking.  It seemed that they were doing this because they cared about me, maybe even loved me! Perhaps this was what unconditional love was all about.

I let that thought sink in and then I started to cry.  I was overwhelmed with the realization that I must be worthy of love if they were happy to do this very generous act of support, day after day, week after week….

Here I was, 49 years old and it took a cancer diagnosis to show me that I was worthy of love.

So let me tell you, my beautiful friend…you are worthy of love.  Believe it, feel it, know it, open your heart to this truth.  You don’t have to do anything to earn it, you don’t have to pay anyone for it, you don’t have to be any kind of special person – you are worthy of love simply because you exist.

You don’t need a crisis or challenge to teach you about this love – I’ve done all the hard stuff for you – all you have to do is keep repeating this over and over and over until you can fully believe it, no matter what is happening in your life.  This month, use all the Valentine messages to remind you of the most important message you could ever give yourself:

 You are worthy of love.

Love,

Deb

Yoga

Relax and Restore with me in my Monday night yoga class!   There are still some spots open so you can sign up or drop in when you can!

Monday nights
January 9 – February 27^th, 2017
8 weeks
$120 + gst/ drop in $20
Sundragon Studios 3141 Portage Avenue
email me at deb@getitdunn.ca if you are interested in the last few weeks!

Private Yoga

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